See you tomorrow

We finally left the dinner table after two months of planning the reunion. Most of the girls kissed and hugged each other, guys shook hands, others anxious to go home. We said "till next time" and parted ways.

Your best friend dropped you home after lunch after the weekly Monday date. You are halfway through your list of restaurants now. Next Monday is that new Japanese place, then probably try that new tea place before the hype dies again.

Sent a SMS to my brother to tell him that I already paid for all the bills and he replies, "I'll give my share when I get home"

 My cousins and I had been looking forward to our ultimate getaway April next year. Just talking about it makes us giggle like kids

See you when I get home, till next time, till next Monday, till next year. Life has a funny way of making you so confident in the future. As certain as the sun will rise in the East, as certain as you will wake up tomorrow, eat, work, sleep and wake up again.

Routine takes hostages. Routine and predictability makes us confident. But are we to blame about this confidence if God makes you see and love this person everyday for 2 or 10 or 50 years. You just know the newspaper guy comes everyday at 6:00 am in his mountain bike,  that the guy in the sitcom will always be on at 7:00, that your brother will always be home by 4:00. Then one day they don't show up. 

When you lose someone you love, in the most unexpected time and ways, the line "See you tomorrow" becomes peculiar. You look at people like bubbles with their entire life story, memories, thoughts, feelings and plans inside this fragile dome that can rupture anytime. No pattern, no warning, only a momentary rainbow hue before it bursts. Confirmation.

Anything and anyone can be taken away from us anytime except perspective. Getting angry is a choice, losing faith is a choice. You can also choose to love bubbles liked you've never loved before. Every second is a gift. Memory is a gift.

- For our dearest Ate Des, Joan, Bajeng, Tita Pines, Tito Alex, Abram, Alessi. May you find the answers soon. Journey well Kuya.